dear baby,
today marks your 100th day in the womb.
we love you so much already and we are praying for you every day. these last few months have been teaching us what it means to really trust in God fully and to wholeheartedly surrender to Him.
there are so many things I want to do to protect you already. i've been trying my best to:
- eat healthy (despite the food aversions + constant nausea - why do you hate chicken and fish so much?)
- get lots of rest + sleep (daddy has been very gracious in letting me leave dirty dishes in the sink and folded laundry stacked on the couch almost every day)
- not run after bed alarms too fast or carry heavy patients (my co-workers aka your aunties and uncles have been helping me out!)
- drink lots and lots of water (it's harder to do at work, but do you know I wake up almost 2 times a night to pee? well, of course you do.)
- limit my caffeine intake (did you know I haven't had a real cup of coffee for the last 3 months? I hear you can have 1 cup but daddy says "no". you'll learn soon enough that this is quite shocking!)
- get regular exercise to build my strength + endurance (even though the lack of energy makes it pretty challenging!).
God has been teaching me that there is no where safer or better for you to be than in the safety of His arms. I'm learning that it is He who has etched every detail of you from the beginning of time; that even before you were created/conceived - that He designed your every detail and has written out all the days of your little life. I'm learning that your life in the womb and out of it is completely and solely and sovereignly sustained by the mercy of the One who created you. I'm learning to find my peace in knowing that God is always in control and I'm realizing that's a lesson I'm gonna have to learn every day of your/my life. there is nothing else that can provide me peace as I carry you now and pray and plan on how we will help you grow in all the days to come. what hope and joy we are able to have in this world of uncertainties and changing circumstances that we have a God who is ever-unchanging, always-sovereign and so, so loving.
we still have a long way to go together and I can't wait to watch you grow.
today we commemorated your 100th day by going on a date night at a really yummy chinese restaurant. your daddy ate a lot. I hope you get your appetite from him. I, on the other hand, couldn't eat much today because my belly is starting to feel pretty full and uncomfortable. I have shortness of breath. you should see me try to climb the stairs - it's pretty pathetic (ha, ha!)
ps. if you don't mind, can we start eating pho again? it's actually one of my fave foods but you don't seem to like it too much. if not, it's coo. love you.
xoxo,
mama
p.p.s. you twitched in the middle of your ultrasound today and when your daddy saw that he freaked out because he twitches in his sleep too. he was really smiley and proud that you got that from him. (silly boy)
